oh wow………

it is AAAAAAAAAAGES……. since i have been here last. i just couldn’t write. i was in hospital twice… once i even landed on ICU and my family was called by the docs… were told to wish me goodbye & farewell … well as you can see, i am still here.. thank you God for that 🙂 i am still with my lovely husband, family, friends… carers, … careres…. yes….. because they care …. for me…… and about me. and that is wonderful… my cancer is the same as before… i think at the moment the metastases have been stopped from growing more. they haven’t spread either … but of course i am in a wheelchair. i can not walk longer distancances… well short ones neither. thus the wheelchair. i do have a ROLLI tho… short stretches like in my apartment are ok with that. and the beauty is.. i can turn it around and sit down in it. that is good because my legs just give out at times….. how to walk properly if there is no feeling in your legs, your feet, your thighs ? awkward i can tell you. but i am good. no more than that. i am fine 🙂 God is with me.. i love Him i can tell ya. HE does so much for me too….. HE is the real carer … as i said, i LOVE him and i care for him too and i am full of gratitude for the lovely things i get daily. i am forever grateful for this gift i got from Him. … i am a positive person… i am an optimist… and i love life. this is what lets me live with cancer, cancer that – according to meds – is not cureable. … cancer in the last stage.. i have palliative care…… palliative meaning —> perhaps prolonging life, making living circumstances more comfy…
my death has been taken care of. i have made plans, which i still need to write down, but it is all here in my head… having looked at death and having made those plans… i can put all of this death-stuff aside and continue enjoying life 🙂
of course, when i was hospitalised i did not create art….. just one piece of a grumpy fish, very art brut, outsider art in style, this little fish in his grumpyness went off to the USA. but my creativity is back. i have made a few new paintings, and just today i started on a new piece of art… the background is happening. at the same time, ok about 2 weeks ago, i re-discovered an old love. knitting. at the moment it is either knitting or painting… my hands are always busy in a way. knitting has become my way to get grounded again… it is so zen, meditative, relaxing, fun… in short… i LOVE knitting 🙂 i will show you……. i am making a pair of sox for my bestie friend in the USA … and i will also show you my new background. and apart from that you have plenty to read …… so i will come to an end now. look at the pics… read what i wrote… or don’t … and i wish you all a lovely weekend.

with much Love and Light ………. pat aka mimulux 🙂

p.s. ok.. you are right… i changed my mind.. i only uploaded art i created since leaving hospital. some of them are for sale… please check out my homepage on DailyPaintworks … tada.. see ya 🙂

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… and now the circus has come to town :) .. and it SOLD YAY :)

CIRCUS

…. i like to doodle – as most of you know…. my doodling has “developed”… to the extent that i now have papers all over the flat and pens… or fine liners – as in this case – and when watching TV or netflix.. i just doodle on the side… scribble, scrabble, let the pen take over… not thinking what i am doing.. concentrating on the tv.. so these drawings come from realy realy deep inside of me… this one here…… i uploaded it yesterday and today already it is gone… sold to a collector in switzerland….. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY to that 🙂 my CIRCUS already has found a new home 🙂
namaste my friends !!!

oh my gosh.. .. a new life .. and so much happening

dear friends.. dear readers

my chemotherapy makes me very tired… a fact which really made me angry at the beginning.. i fought against it, could not accept it… wanted it to go away. but fatigue doesn’t just “go away”. fatigue is – or can be – totally overwhelming.. i walked around like a zombie.. and i would avoid sitting on the sofa cause i knew.. the moment i sat on it.. i would fall asleep. so .. i sat on uncomfortable chairs, just to keep me awake. i would purposely stay active… do something.. anything.. just to get away from fatigue. of course.. – yes you guessed correctly – all of that did not work.. on the contary.. it made it worse. fatigue turned into a huge black wave.. that would just catch me.. engulf me.. and drag me along.. into the land of sleep. my sleep is so deep that i cannot hear the phone ring.. nor the alarm clock.. nor the doorbell. i am out of it.. completely.. almost “unconscious”… a goner…… zilch……. out….. just blackness surrounding me.

but things have changed… and that is the “new life” part… i realize that my sleep is there for a reason. it has a purpose.. it even has a healing quality… this “revelation” was initiated by a dear friend of mine.. who prayed for me … and during her prayer i had this.. aha moment.. and there was a flow of energy entering me.. it was a totally amazing feeling and it changed my point of view. i still have cancer related fatigue though.. every day… every hour.. every minute… but during my friend’s prayer i suddenly was able to change perspectives.. i.e. sleep was not my enemy, but my friend. so now.. i have made adjustments to my life.. in the mornings.. i am awake.. i do my stuff, the householdy stuff… and once the flat is cleaned… well sort of.. … it is art time. art.. is amazing.. art heals… art gives me energy.. art makes me happy.. when i am creating something.. i do not feel the fatigue.. it is there.. but i do not feel it. i am on a different level.. i enjoy what i am doing and it gives me so much.. i feel so blessed and happy… that i have this gift., that i was given this gift !… it is such a great help now 🙂 ok. that was a long story…. at 4.30 p.m. though… i am off. i go and lay down on my bed.. and within 10 minutes max.. i sleep.. sometimes 2 hours… sometimes 3.. once i even slept til almost 10 p.m. !!! .. wow.. but i have come to terms with things… and i have re-arranged my life.. so that my body gets what it needs.. sleep.. a LOT of it… but also energizing stuff like.. art.. or a workout at the gym … a walk.. or just sitting on the balcony and enjoying the sun 🙂

now to the wowowow part 🙂 i sold two paintings this week. isn’t that absolutely amazing?? both of them are off to the USA on monday. ! so here they are… take a look.. and i have many more paintings waiting for a new home… :)) i wish you all a marvellous day.. be happy, take care.. stay healthy…. wear that mask darn it !!!! .. and be good 🙂

love and light………. pat ♥

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  Blue Donkey walking up the Hill

a big THANK YOU to the collectors who bought my art. i am very grateful… and i wish you lots of joy and happiness with my art !!

… uploaded … and gone !

well i am really thrilled to bits………. yesterday i uploaded a new painting and a few hours later it was sold.. what a wonderful, fabulous thing to happen.. 🙂 so a big THANKS goes to the customer in the UK .. you really made my day :))

and this is the painting i am talking about:

DANCE SISTERS! DANCE
mixed media on stretched canvas 24x30x1 centimeters.
dance sisters, dance.. live now.. enjoy this moment.. yesterday is gone, tomorrow not yet here… so dance sisters, dance !

………. Winston ………….

see…. i told ya. doggie art was waiting to happen….. and here we are……….. with WINSTON ………. i love him….. he reminds me a bit of myself.. loving flowers… a bit of a dreamer.. a bit.. uhm… chubby 😀 … happy, optimistic… loving life.
oh yes i know.. there are some very serious people out there.. wrinkling their noses at my almost childish art… thinking that this is not art.. these are just.. scribblings.. naive, childish.. no depth in them.. ?? well boo to you too…….. ! do you realize how much courage it took to just let my inner child take over and create these paintings?? to just.. completely let go of all expectations and high flying ideas … and just GO WITH THAT FLOW …… ?? fully aware that there is probably a high amount of.. shaking heads and sniggers and raised eyebrows and oh so wise trashing and tearing apart of my art by all those highly learned critics .. well as i said before….. BOO TO YOU TOO!

my inner child.. had to act adult for a very long time.. or was just silenced cause i was not able to listen to it.. to give it time and space.. to encourage and embrace it.  but now…. I DO !! and THIS is my kind of art.. YES !!! love it or not…….. up to you ….

ok.. had my say 🙂 as to Winston… it is a mixed media painting on cardboard..  19 centimeters wide.. and 9/13.5 cm high.. it is recycled cardboard.. from a catfood box haha 🙂 ……. the painting is for sale.. for info contact me please 🙂

have a wonderful day and weekend.. take care……. and stay healthy please !

my inner child is having a ball … “The red Cat on the Roof” … mixed media on cardboard

die rote katze auf dem dach – the red cat on the roof

mixed media with collage elements on cardboard. size 9 x 19 centimeters; signed on the front… i added a protective varnish to the painting. the original is for sale.. for info please contact me.

you might have noticed… my inner child is having a ball……. having fun and being totally happy. for a long time it had to stay put and quiet… act “grown-up” during my cancer treaments.. and all the stuff that happend during this particular journey. the inner child went very quiet .. tried to support me as much as possible, but i was not in the mood, not capable for fun and games.. preoccupied with other matters, my inner child got a bit neglected. but now things have changed and .. my inner child is back.. i give it all the attention it wants and i get “rewarded” by lovely, artsy input, images full of colour and life. i hope you all are having as much fun with this as i/we are having.

Spring Mandala – a Mandala of Hope, Faith, Love and Peace

Spring Mandala

a Mandala of Hope, Faith, Love and Peace … dedicated to my family and friends. Much Love and Light to all ♥

mixed media on canvas board, diameter 30 cm. signed on the back.

STARBURST … more digital art !

Starburst

digital art… an abstract impression of an exploding star… of energy and power in a far away galaxy… just that? no of course not… it is also symbolic for our life, for living…… for being alive.. the star explodes… but it does not vanish.. it does not “go away” .. instead many new stars are created, enriching the universe ..  shining ever so bright…

prints, posters, greeting cards and many products are available……. on RedBubble, FineArtAmerica/Pixels.com, ArtPal, Artflakes .. and metal posters on Displate

Pensive Moment … thoughts from an optimist

PENSIVE MOMENT .. 

mixed media on cardboard .. 21×30 cm – 8.26×11.81 in .. new in my cardboard series – original for sale… for info pls. contact me.

i am glad to say.. i am an optimist. it is a gift i have and i am deeply grateful for.. i have encountered many things in life which knocked me over – at first – .. but i always got up again.. and with all of my heart i can say.. life is great.. !! however.. as an optimist i have encountered prejudices.. such as.. you don’t take things/life seriously.. you are shallow… etc, etc. well let me tell you something………. NO. optimists are NOT shallow and do take things seriously.. also as an optimist i have my down moments.. my moments when i flip out.. get angry, upset, feel insecure, hurt, scared… pensive etc. etc.. … but as an optimist i know that life goes on, nothing is ever as bad as it seems, and there is always a gold-nugget in the sh**t-heap.. it might be tiny, but it is there…… waiting for me. and once i found it… i take it.. treasure it, and believe it or not, gold nuggets can grow or multiply. as to the sh**t-heap.. THAT i use as manure for my gardenplants 🙂
have a lovely, positive day .. love and light to all

Dancing Particles … and a happydancing artist

DANCING PARTICLES .. my newest creation on recycled cardboard.. it measures 21 x 30 cm .. i.e. 8.26 x 11.81 in.

Prints are available.. also on various products in my shops on Redbubble, FineartAmerica

… why the dancing artist?? i uploaded my new art.. and barely 2 hours later it was sold.. that sure makes for a BIG.. GIGANTIC………… HAPPYDANCE 🙂 !!!! many many thanks to the buyer 🙂