Posts Tagged ‘joy of living

30
Apr
21

… so i was told to quit keeping it to myself…

… and so i wont … only a few days of not being on wordpress and everything seems to have changed again… but maybe this is just my impression of things. anyway.. yes i have not been here for a while.. been too busy creating stuff πŸ™‚ and had a close encounter with an orthodontist on tuesday.. now i’ve got a lump in my face.. but no more pain and i hope the stitches will come out soon.. the only yuck think about it is.. that i have to take antibiotics because i am in a chemotherapy.. oh well… won’t keep me from being artsy πŸ™‚

i won’t say much more… just uploading some of the things i created and also managed to sell πŸ™‚ yay to that !! wishing you all a wonderful rest of the week and a happy weekend to come πŸ™‚ love and light….. pat πŸ™‚

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08
Apr
21

oh my gosh.. .. a new life .. and so much happening

dear friends.. dear readers

my chemotherapy makes me very tired… a fact which really made me angry at the beginning.. i fought against it, could not accept it… wanted it to go away. but fatigue doesn’t just “go away”. fatigue is – or can be – totally overwhelming.. i walked around like a zombie.. and i would avoid sitting on the sofa cause i knew.. the moment i sat on it.. i would fall asleep. so .. i sat on uncomfortable chairs, just to keep me awake. i would purposely stay active… do something.. anything.. just to get away from fatigue. of course.. – yes you guessed correctly – all of that did not work.. on the contary.. it made it worse. fatigue turned into a huge black wave.. that would just catch me.. engulf me.. and drag me along.. into the land of sleep. my sleep is so deep that i cannot hear the phone ring.. nor the alarm clock.. nor the doorbell. i am out of it.. completely.. almost “unconscious”… a goner…… zilch……. out….. just blackness surrounding me.

but things have changed… and that is the “new life” part… i realize that my sleep is there for a reason. it has a purpose.. it even has a healing quality… this “revelation” was initiated by a dear friend of mine.. who prayed for me … and during her prayer i had this.. aha moment.. and there was a flow of energy entering me.. it was a totally amazing feeling and it changed my point of view. i still have cancer related fatigue though.. every day… every hour.. every minute… but during my friend’s prayer i suddenly was able to change perspectives.. i.e. sleep was not my enemy, but my friend. so now.. i have made adjustments to my life.. in the mornings.. i am awake.. i do my stuff, the householdy stuff… and once the flat is cleaned… well sort of.. … it is art time. art.. is amazing.. art heals… art gives me energy.. art makes me happy.. when i am creating something.. i do not feel the fatigue.. it is there.. but i do not feel it. i am on a different level.. i enjoy what i am doing and it gives me so much.. i feel so blessed and happy… that i have this gift., that i was given this gift !… it is such a great help now πŸ™‚ ok. that was a long story…. at 4.30 p.m. though… i am off. i go and lay down on my bed.. and within 10 minutes max.. i sleep.. sometimes 2 hours… sometimes 3.. once i even slept til almost 10 p.m. !!! .. wow.. but i have come to terms with things… and i have re-arranged my life.. so that my body gets what it needs.. sleep.. a LOT of it… but also energizing stuff like.. art.. or a workout at the gym … a walk.. or just sitting on the balcony and enjoying the sun πŸ™‚

now to the wowowow part πŸ™‚ i sold two paintings this week. isn’t that absolutely amazing?? both of them are off to the USA on monday. ! so here they are… take a look.. and i have many more paintings waiting for a new home… :)) i wish you all a marvellous day.. be happy, take care.. stay healthy…. wear that mask darn it !!!! .. and be good πŸ™‚

love and light………. pat β™₯

a big THANK YOU to the collectors who bought my art. i am very grateful… and i wish you lots of joy and happiness with my art !!




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